circadian rhythm

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Waking up at 2am with nowhere to go is tough. Getting back to sleep is harder than running 5 or more miles. My mind is doesn't just turn off when I mentally want to go back to sleep. Eventually it will happen, but it happens a lot faster after I wear out the rest of my body. Soon enough I'll get back outside and on my feet.

I can feel my legs coming back. It is a wild sensation to go from having no strength and soreness the way I did to where I am now in just a matter of 4 days. There is something miraculous about healing and the regeneration of the muscles. I don't want to rush it, but I sorta miss running.



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